Whew, what was I thinking when I said I wanted more kids after Dallas? I guess I jumped right into all the snuggles, kisses, hugs, and fun we would have and forgot all about the pregnancy/delivery, sleepless nights, the blowouts … Oh, and I definitely can’t forget the sore boobs. No, seriously I love my girls but whew, a sista is tired.

They say with the second baby everything is different, and I’d have to agree! My pregnancy was different, my delivery was different, and y’all, my recovery was way different. Of course, with a new baby you get a million questions from everyone, including: Did you do a natural birth? Is she sleeping through the night? Do you use formula or are you breastfeeding? And the most common of them all: What is it like being a mom of two? 

The COVID-19 Curse

Well, I’ll be the first to tell you it’s tough — and even tougher in a global pandemic! This moment of truth doesn’t mean I love my kids any less, but yall know I don’t lie to my socialites, and I would be lying if I told you everything was peachy keen. Miss Dallas is just turning three and Miss Demi is… well lets, just say she won’t take no mess.

Right now, I’m looking at COVID-19 as a gift and a curse. I’d love to be outside doing stuff and enjoying this new country with my family. but it just can’t happen…that’s the curse, keeping me inside the house with an overly active, very advanced toddler who simply wants to just go outside and play. And then I have Demi who eats, poops, and sleeps in a recurring cycle. They both are lucky they are cute, because … Whew!… I would have quit a long time ago. Just kidding, I would go crazy without my kids. 

The Gift of COVID-19

The gift of COVID is the extra time I get with my girls! Kids grow so fast and before I know it, they’ll be walking around with attitudes and rolling their eyes. During this time, I’ve been able to reflect and look at the mother I was and build on the mother I want to be. Most moms are complaining about getting their kids back in school and I’m here just to get as many hugs, kisses, and snuggles as I can get. Being a mom of two is/was scary, but I’ve learned to give myself grace and try not to worry about the unknown. But, it’s the fact of the unknown with a new baby while managing another kid, and you’re home as well.

Oftentimes I catch myself saying, “I can’t believe I have two kids.” Like for real…I’m a mom. It’s crazy to think about but I do, and I love every bit of being their mother. My girls have helped me grow into the woman I am today, and I am so thankful for that. With all the sleepless nights, tears, frustration, happiness, and joy I’m proud God chose me to be their mother. Individually they both bring something to the table that they don’t even know they have.  Dallas gave me confidence, and Demi gave me strength (I’ll elaborate on that in another post). While I thought I had both before I had kids, now you can’t tell me anything!

#TrueLife, I Love being a Mom of Two!